A New Day...

OK, so I have spent way too much time angry because I let myself gain the weight back.  I am not even going to quote the numbers, but I am going to qualify the feelings.

I realize that I have been stressed out and busier in the last two years than I have been in a long time.  I let my awesome regimen for getting the weight off and keeping it off go by the wayside thinking that I didn't have to be so careful anymore.  Then I put on my winter coat last Nov, and I realized the damage I'd done.

There is no feeling that compares to the failure of weight gain.  Especially when you sacrificed so much in the first place to lose weight.  I went from 211 to 155!! I have not gotten on the scale yet but I am almost sure I am back to my original weight.

  I don't want to use the same method as before because in some way I am totally ashamed for letting this happen.  I know I need a fresh start, and I don't want my past success haunting me...strange right?

So with spring break coming up I am going to do a 14 day cleanse, and lead into Jorge Cruise's Happy Hormones Slim Belly ...It is a variation on a idea I myself used years ago when I realized i needed to cut back on sugar.  I personally know it is doable and I will be mindful again about what I am eating.

I will be logging my food choices on here and attempt to hold myself accountable even without the support of my old WW buddies and family members.  Seems like when I depend on people to support me, I go through ups and downs with them that affect my own success.  I need this to be a quiet and private affair this go round.

I by no means have started my new eating plan, but I am going to be in the habit of writing what I eat, no matter what!  I want to stop thinking of foods as bad foods, and stop trying to hide what I am doing from myself.

This Weeks Food Log